Sianess

SOOOOOOOOO wanted to go to Trinity for their Valentine's Day service but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mom has to play the guilt trip card and make it so that i wont go for it....DAMMIT.....damn pissed...havnt gone to a service at all this week.... realli was lookin forward to goin but nooooooo must stay home n STUDY…STUDY STUDY STUDY....it seems thats all i do but its not really productive...like right now im supposed to be studyin but i cant realli say im in a mood condusive to studyin so here i am typin this out. B4 mom called me n kinda RUINED the rest of my day...i was at sunday sch...not as a student but as a facilitator so its diff...then cuz it was Jessie's bdae ytd we went to suntec to go eat brunch...ate at Carl's Jr then mom called...sigh....walked to Ben n Jerry's after that ate some ice-cream then decided to leave. at that time saw Val's god-parents so went to say hi...didnt see her godma so val was tryna rush off w/o all of us talkin n decidin wad was gonna happen...then when they were walkin off val's godma came...she didnt even go n talk to her...val just rushed off...along with everyone else leaving me to say ello n goodbye n sry we cant stay too long to chat...blah blah... then had to run off after them...i mean their rehersal wasin 1 HOUR!!! it doesnt take THAT LONG to walk back to Church...cant even talk to her own godma a lil while...then just walk off w/o me...dammit sia...was so pissed that i just put on my headphones n walked on infront of them w/o sayin anythin n went home to "STUDY"....sia lah.... pissed.....shall not talk anymore...however i feel like typin a lil something :
i aint sick of this life...just wondering y's it gottta b filled with strife,
Sg's a nice n safe place to stay...but then y do i see so many ppl movin away?
Tests,CAs,Exam Results...Is that all there is to this life?
So many just end it with a knife...thrown away...this precious gift called "life"...
why do children and teens seek out Death...and the many ways to draw their last breath?
is it the stress placed upon them? the expectations once they're too old for a play pen?
To get into RI or RGS after the PSLE? 2Points for the O levels to go straight to college?
Be a Doctor,Lawyer,a job where they get recognised and you can brag?
Why not an artist? teacher or coach? something that will touch the lives of others?
how about an NBA/NFL star?what? you say that its too far?
How do you know its too far if you've never travelled that path?
If im not gonna b a scientist or a mathematician why learn science n math?
I want to play pro ball...you say i'll stumble and fall...
Dont that sound familiar to you? Like a baby takin its 1st steps towards you...
It will stumble and fall...and it may not get up but you urge them on...and they do it right
aint i right? arent we all walking because of the many times where we stumbled and fell but due to encouragement we overcame it and are walking tall...
Cant a kid dream of playing in the NBA? "you cant make it...you wont make it no matter how hard you try" you say
"no matter how hard i try?" if it doesnt try at all will the baby eagle ever fly?
now your pushing me to do well...i want to but cant seem to...
do well in sch...sigh thats all thats important?
how abt the little things that make life worthwhile?
have we really come to the point where numbers on a slip of paper make up our life?
i dont know...i hope not...cuz if it has...i see why many have skipped the drama called life and went straight to the ending....

what a nice day!!! =D

whoa its been a long time.... i can smell the staleness of this blog... sry dudes n dudettes for not updating this place regularly...sch's been goin on for abt a month already and im just able to cope. the whole month's been abt the same altho it still feels kinda weird to be called sec4.... IT'S "O" LEVELS THIS YEAR!!!! AAAAAARRRRRGH!!!!! hai...sry abt that.... o well abt today...its been a long time since i've talked with her, almost 7months, and the last time i saw her was exactly one year ago today, but i finally got to see n talk to her after all this time!! so happy... i've missed her so much... she's such a great fren of mine and not being able to talk to her has realli been weird and uncomfortable... so anyway... today is her bdae n i went to her house to give her, her present. she was kinda surprised to see me but none the less she looked pretty cheery as always even though she was sick and didnt go to school. God realli aligned it nicely for me today... i was gonna sit at a cafe near her house n "ambush" her on her way home but decided to go to her hse later, then normally she doesnt get home til 6.45 on thurs n i went there at abt 5.50pm but cuz she was sick she stayed at home. so Thanks Dad!!! for making such a nice coincidence.... well its been a great day i'll try n update more often ppl!! cya ard

Srryz

Hey guys i know i said id blog in NZ but its been kinda hard cuz i didnt have internet connection at all the places ive stayed at. right now its like 2am over here so im not gonna b bloggin a long one 2nite. i'll finish up when i get back hahahhaz its just too hard to type everythin ive done...specially when im supposed to be slpin..... so yea just dropped by to say hi so cya guys when i get back!!

TMR NZ

i'll be off to new zealand tmr nite...sighz...i know i shld b happy but then.... i'll be missin my church youth camp!!!! i realli realli realli wanna gooooooo!!!! sighz.... so suay, everytime the camp is like...durin the time im away...ah well....will do my best to go nxt yr!!! nuthin much to say actually....will b bloggin frm NZ so yea cya guys ard.

St.Andrew's Day

whoooooo hooooooooo!!! It was St.Andrew's day today!!! so fun!!! got to church at abt 8.45 and waited for the touch rugby games to start. didnt do the st.andrew's workout, lol... so we played the games...1st game was against some old guys n they kept playin offside!!!!! AAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGH!!! so irritatin. Ref didnt give any penalty either, sighz... score was 0-0. 2nd game we lost 3-2. 3rd game was lost 4-2 and the last game was won 4-2. siiiighhh.... funny thing is, the refs were all my dad's old rugby mates back in JC. hahah oh well it was fun. o especially the last match... we played in the rain!!!!! hahahzz that was super fun. it was all muddy n stuff. went to the car to change l8r n then had some chow....was huuuuuungry! had some poh piah then went home...rest of the day was pretty borin so no need to tell u guys lah hahahz aite man cya ard!

...sleep-over...

whoa...super tired this mornin... Yesterday was a FULL day fer me. Went ta church in the mornin at abt 7.45am and found out that the senior sunday sch has kinda been kicked out of the south transept hall and up into the chapterhouse where i find that its kinda small. Also, the new system of church is that once u have been "confirmed" u will be graduated from there and either start attending the main service or join a youth group. presonally i don't realli like this...i wld much rather do it the old school style where we stayed til we were sec4 but then again...sighz ah well...its gotta b part of God's plan for the church and more likely for US, the youth of the church. I think he wants us to grow in Him faster and stronger so that we may help others along the way... but hey...im just guessin this. After church i had a blast my my friends came over n then we went out bowling at SICC...THAT was fun!! hahahz we were like the noisiest group there. After bowling...a lil pool n dinner we came home and went to play bball!!! Me n Dick lost to Teren's team by 1 bal!!!! not fair!!! hai....hahhaz well better go practice more to beat him. then it just got crazier...we cut Val's bdae cake and played twister...that was maddness....twister was crazy hahhahz....so much fun. We watch "you got served" which was totally off the heezy fer sheezy...anyone who likes dancin shld watch it!! i garuntee you'll like it. After that we watched the longest yard...with about another half of the game to go in the movie i fell aslp...onli to wake up later when the movie ended. hahahz that was like at 4am in the mornin sia....n i think tonite again got ppl comin to stay at my place....ahhahhz my hse dunrin hols always like this one... like a chalet... well i Thank Lord God Jesus for givin me a place where i stay and am able to do these things... thank you!!!! aite guys ima gonna bounce so i'll b back soon to blog again.

ISOW was da BOMB!!!

since tuesday i've been attending ISOW, the international school of worship, conducted by Uncle Brendon and Aunt Cathie Clancy at Grace Methodist Church.It was such a special experience, something i have not done before. It has given me more confidence to lead worship at 8am sunday school as well as to join the worship team at LYnC. on tuesday it started off reeeeeeeeal quick and energetic! most of the time during ISOW was spent praising and worshiping Jesus,Lord our God. We talked abt how to get into God's presence and how to keep the children and youth as well as adults there for a very long time. We played games and had a ball of a time, alot of shouting and jumping around was done...and it ROCKEDD!!!! hahahhzwe we're even asked to lead 1 song of praise or worship. St.andrew's cathedral consisting of me,timothy,valerie,michelle and vanessa chose to do "one way" by hillsong. At first there was supposed to be all of us dancing... but once it started, i just cldnt stop jumping up n down! it was like "heck the dancing, i'll just praise the Lord in the ways which come to me!!" n then it was just shouting and praising all the way!! at the end val was praying and worshipin God, so i closed my eyes and did likewise, as i finished...it was all quiet. i opened my eyes to see almost everyone looking at me and aunt Cathie saying "check him out!! he doesnt even care abt u guys..." hahahz that was really funny to go through...we were seen as passionate. sighz....it was such a sad thing to have to leave GMC today and know i wont be goin back tmr with all the same ppl, but anyhowz.... it was a wonderful and enjoyable experience for me. I've made new friends with ppl from Chapel of the ressurection...hahahz ah well hope to see them sometime soon....its quite a long blog...and my layout is not exactly the easiest to use to read and i do apologise for that...so i gonna go off now cya guys ard!