Sianess

SOOOOOOOOO wanted to go to Trinity for their Valentine's Day service but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mom has to play the guilt trip card and make it so that i wont go for it....DAMMIT.....damn pissed...havnt gone to a service at all this week.... realli was lookin forward to goin but nooooooo must stay home n STUDY…STUDY STUDY STUDY....it seems thats all i do but its not really productive...like right now im supposed to be studyin but i cant realli say im in a mood condusive to studyin so here i am typin this out. B4 mom called me n kinda RUINED the rest of my day...i was at sunday sch...not as a student but as a facilitator so its diff...then cuz it was Jessie's bdae ytd we went to suntec to go eat brunch...ate at Carl's Jr then mom called...sigh....walked to Ben n Jerry's after that ate some ice-cream then decided to leave. at that time saw Val's god-parents so went to say hi...didnt see her godma so val was tryna rush off w/o all of us talkin n decidin wad was gonna happen...then when they were walkin off val's godma came...she didnt even go n talk to her...val just rushed off...along with everyone else leaving me to say ello n goodbye n sry we cant stay too long to chat...blah blah... then had to run off after them...i mean their rehersal wasin 1 HOUR!!! it doesnt take THAT LONG to walk back to Church...cant even talk to her own godma a lil while...then just walk off w/o me...dammit sia...was so pissed that i just put on my headphones n walked on infront of them w/o sayin anythin n went home to "STUDY"....sia lah.... pissed.....shall not talk anymore...however i feel like typin a lil something :
i aint sick of this life...just wondering y's it gottta b filled with strife,
Sg's a nice n safe place to stay...but then y do i see so many ppl movin away?
Tests,CAs,Exam Results...Is that all there is to this life?
So many just end it with a knife...thrown away...this precious gift called "life"...
why do children and teens seek out Death...and the many ways to draw their last breath?
is it the stress placed upon them? the expectations once they're too old for a play pen?
To get into RI or RGS after the PSLE? 2Points for the O levels to go straight to college?
Be a Doctor,Lawyer,a job where they get recognised and you can brag?
Why not an artist? teacher or coach? something that will touch the lives of others?
how about an NBA/NFL star?what? you say that its too far?
How do you know its too far if you've never travelled that path?
If im not gonna b a scientist or a mathematician why learn science n math?
I want to play pro ball...you say i'll stumble and fall...
Dont that sound familiar to you? Like a baby takin its 1st steps towards you...
It will stumble and fall...and it may not get up but you urge them on...and they do it right
aint i right? arent we all walking because of the many times where we stumbled and fell but due to encouragement we overcame it and are walking tall...
Cant a kid dream of playing in the NBA? "you cant make it...you wont make it no matter how hard you try" you say
"no matter how hard i try?" if it doesnt try at all will the baby eagle ever fly?
now your pushing me to do well...i want to but cant seem to...
do well in sch...sigh thats all thats important?
how abt the little things that make life worthwhile?
have we really come to the point where numbers on a slip of paper make up our life?
i dont know...i hope not...cuz if it has...i see why many have skipped the drama called life and went straight to the ending....