Ramblings

I want:

A Mini Cooper S. Second hand its 80 Grand! Better start saving huh?

All models of Air Jordans ever made! Sigh...why they gotta make so many??? I'll never have a complete collection... (cause it'll probably be altogether worth a BMW or 2)

A new closet! I don't have enough closet space at all!!! My t-shirts are all crumpled and what not.

A new house with a basketball court, home theatre system and 4 lane bowling alley built into the basement. A huge ass swimming pool and enough man toys to never be bored.

A day to play basketball with my favourite NBA players.

A day poverty came to an end.

A life without pain. (HAH yea right, if only...)

A way to make things right again.

I'm sorry the way things worked out.

I know I've disappointed you. If there's anything I could do to make it up I would without a doubt. I've done some stupid things in my life but that had to be one of the most idiotic things I've accomplished in my short life time. I can't turn back time but I can move forward a changed person.

Still I can't help but think,  "If only things were different..."

Reflections

I wish I could go all the way back and do things differently, if only I had thought things through and talked before jumping into it.
But it's too late now isn't it? Shoulda Coulda Woulda's are always nice but they don't happen. What do i do now? It's so tiring looking. I don't know how else to say it other than through music:

Boys Like Girls - Thunder

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder...

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There's more but i'm too tired to continue...

"On Wings of Crimson Fire I Fly,

Straight into the Midnight Sky..."