What's It Mean To Be A Friend?

Okay, so like what does it mean to be a friend? Let's go by the dictionary meaning.
Dictionary.com says:
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter

3. a person who is on good terms with another

Hmmm... my own:
1. a person you actually CHAT and have CONVERSATIONS with.

2. a person you spend TIME with.

So... technically if your "friend" doesn't do any of these, can't exactly call 'em your friend can you?

You know, we don't need to do this, we can just stop the facade that we're still friends.
A "hello" here and there with a half smile are all we have now huh?
Just tell me. I can take it. Say it and let's move on. Without each other's friendship, not like we have one now but anyway.
I still want to be friends, I do. But if your idea of ME being YOUR friend is that you can tell everyone else stuff but not me well i don't need that. I don't even know what to talk to you about anymore. I don't know you. I used to. Not anymore.
Just go hang out in you're own group. I have a group of people who ACTUALLY give a DAMN about me. People who ask how I'm doing, talk with me about everything and anything, SPEND TIME WITH ME. But I guess if that's too hard for you, then don't even pretend to. I don't need someone who won't spend time with me and then say "I'm cool being your friend"
Friends spend time with each other don't they? Or are you just unable to get that into your head?
SIGH...
Ahhh forget it. Go spend time with your friends. Go hang out with them.
Go...just...just... go away.

I'm sorry this post is so emo too... I just need to get that off my chest. EAP EXAM TMR!!! Ahhhhh!!!! PSYCHOLOGY AND MATH ON MONDAY!!!!! LIT ON TUES!!!!! ECONS ON FRI!!!!! Damnit this week gonna pass fast.
But i want it over quickly...
Can't wait to get home.
Miss you guys back in Sunny(read : HOT) singapore!
SATAY AGAIN!!!! HAHAHAH this time going for 50+ sticks!!!

SIAN

Damn sian today man. Dunno why.

"The Happiness of Love is a Shooting Star, The Pain of Love is the Darkness that follows..." A quote from the collection of short stories {A Thousand Years Of Good Prayers} by Li YiYun.

Ain't that too true? How many times does Pain NOT follow after Love?
It's like a faulty package deal. Unless you find the right one, its just gonna end up with someone hurt..

Chains
Chains. Metal. Cold to Touch.
Cold like what I feel from you.

Chains. Strong. Hard to break.
Strong, like my desire to hold you once again.
Unbreakable, my resolve to be with you.

Chains. Restrictive. Holding me back.
The gap you've created between us,
why won't you let me come near?

Chains. Protective. Dare I say never again?
Wrapped my heart in Chains, keeping it from Pain.
You have the Key, will you come set me Free?

I don't know why i feel the way i feel. I know I still miss her. I miss holding her hand, hugging her tight, stroking her cheek with the back of my hand, running my fingers through her hair, kissing her goodnight... I know, but I don't know why I feel the way I feel. I can't describe how I feel...

Lord, please just take away the feelings I have. They're just too painful to bear... I need your love now Jesus, now more than ever...

I just wanna go home. I don't want to do my exams. I don't wanna study anymore, I just want to be at home. I miss my family, my friends, my dog...sigh...

St.Kilda's

Alright as promised, I'll talk abt that CRAZY trip.

Me YuHuai JunWei were the only guys.
The rest were girls : Deb,Shiyou,MingHuei,Sher,Melissa,Chariss,YiHui,Audrey Goh n Quek,Sarah,LiTing,Christine.

Yea so all of us split into 4 diff cabs and met up back at Donnovan's, which is a daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn nice restaurant.

Sat on the pier with the bloody cold wind freezing our butts off. It was probably 10degrees w/o the wind; 7 or 6 with the wind...

Me n Huai had a few beers each. hahah Corona n Asahi. CORONA ROCKS!!!

Haha y'all must be thinking "crazy buggers, chilled beer in less than 10degree weather." But who cares? it was fun!!!

The sunrise wasn't too bad. Even tho it wasn't spectacular, it was pretty fun! We goofed around a lil more then headed home as everyone like started to wake up.

Hit the sack at abt 9.30am and went for church that nite.

I'm lazing for pics so another time! hahah

DEATH TO HOI ESSAY QUESTION TWO

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHHA!!! Done with HOI!!! The only damn thing keepin me from posting the...last 2weeks? yea something like that. shit man lotsa stuff has happened.

1) On the 20th of May, me and 14 other CRAZY ppl went to St.kilda's at like 4am in the morning and sat on the pier to wait for the sunrise. FRICKING COLD!!! Haha will post pics later.

2) SLAP at Arrow on Swanston... that's gonna be a long post so after dinner!!! hahah brb peeps.