The Search

Dawn -
The morning sun creeps over the horizon ever so slowly,
Its beams taking slow stabs into the eternal darkness of the night,
As if waiting for something unexpected.
Two souls wandering collide,
The strings of fate bringing them together.
Where does their destiny lie? Only time will tell.

Noon -
The blazing midday sun scorches the land,
Finding shelter in the shade they lay,
not a care in the world, closer they grew,
Time passes slowly with the sun crawling through the sky,
And it seemed as if this friendship would last forever,
But... would it become something more?

Dusk -
Retiring away, the evening sun struggles as it gives way to the night,
It being the one chased away from its sky throne,
Time now sped away, with not enough to be spent between the two,
What appeared to be forever now was quickly fading,
Fate had other things in store for these two travelers.

Night -
The land now engulfed in the dark of night,
The sun resting from its voyage through the vast blue.
Two souls, pulled apart by the hands of Fate,
"Were we not meant for each other?"
One wondered aloud, in tears from what happened.
Eyes closed, sleep set in.
A long journey was ahead and rest was needed,
The journey to find the One,
When will it end?
Will it ever end?

Go On Girl

Aqua Timez - Sen no Yoru wo Koete (Overcoming the Thousand Nights)


I want you to love me, but I dont think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

Do you love me or not?
I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know!
No matter how badly I desire to be with you
There are many unchangeable things in this world
and my love for you
can't be stopped by anyone

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Putting these feelings into words is so scary
but I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

In this broad world,
I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter,
wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew,
so that we can protect someone

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,
my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me
and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love
And that's the most beautiful thing in the world


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BAAD "Kimi ga Suki da to Sakebitai; I Want to Shout "I Love You"


Starting my run in the middle of town,
bright sunlight at my back,
as always, [you] tapped my shoulder
I'm so enthralled by you
- yet for reasons unknown
your arm won't be linked to mine.

Before I realized it,
you stole my gaze, and it began.
I won't let you go. I won't have any doubts.
Crazy for you.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's be brave and take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.

On the noisy floor,
across from me at the crowded table,
I'm lost in your casual glance.
It feels like I'm in love with you,
yet it's like I'm being toyed with.
I can't lie to my soaring emotions anymore.

When will it change,
this frustrating friendship?
I want to tell you. I want to make sure.
I take you away.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's leave everything behind.
I want to find the words to melt your heart.
I want to shout "I love you."
I won't let you leave me tonight.
Let's end the days we don't get past just gazing at eachother
I wanna cry for you

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's bravely take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.
I wanna cry for you

3 weeks more

In exactly 3 weeks i'll have been in the army for 3 days.

Its coming so fast, it seems just yesterday that it was 3 months away.

I can't believe i'm going to be in the army. It's so surreal. Most of my friends are in JC or poly and so still have at least a year before they go in. I've heard so many different things about it.

It's hell
It's great
Worse 2 years
Best 2 years
Interesting
Waste of time

Yea i've pretty much heard everything but i have no idea what its gonna be like. I guess its something you have to experience for yourself to truly understand.

Looking back, I've come a pretty long way from being in primary 1H in HPPS.
I've changed school twice, classes 6 times and country once.
I've met a ton of ppl while I was at it too, great friends, irritating idiots and just plain annoying punks, but hey, the good with the bad huh? My path to where I am really was God directed. Without going into the details too much I realized how different things would be had I decided differently on some choices such as secondary school as well as my decision to go to Trinity. I may not have enjoyed the initial stages of my new schs but eventually I grew to love the place i had been placed in and the ppl that i had met.

Where I go from here? Well that's not entirely up to me is it?
Peace man
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There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street,
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet,
We were both 18, and it felt so right,
Sleeping all day, staying up all night,
Staying up all night.
----- Yellowcard "Ocean Avenue"

So maybe there’s not a lot to do
Or maybe I’m just making myself confused
Or maybe I’ve got nothing to lose
But if I get out of line,
Just tell me you’re mine,
And how I’m better with you
----- Five Times August "Better With You"

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,
my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me
and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt
----- Aqua Timez "As a Thousand Nights Pass"

Fav Songs

How Time Flies

Its been a year since I first set foot on the Trinity Campus in Melbourne...

I still remember how reluctant I was to leave Sg to go for the Foundations course, leaving family and friends behind. Funny how it was only cuz Huai heard I was thinking of going and he persuaded his parents to let him go that I decided it wldnt be too bad specially cuz my bud wld be rooming with me. Seriously having that bugger as a roomie for a year really makes it an interesting one xD

So many things happened during that 8.5 months(not counting the holidays); orientation camp at the grampians which had a spectacular view of the stars at night; the big noise-where many of us made a fool of ourselves; drama exams which most of us busted our asses off to practice and make perfect and not to forget the prom which was weirdly held at the Melb Aquarium.

Those were just some of the bigger events. There was the weekly events like HOI Lecture with Tamar(the squeakiest lecturer EVER); Graham's econs/nagging sessions; Danny's crazy antics during drama and Maureen's insanely entertaining Psychology lessons.

The friends I have made are ones that I will cherish for life.

Poodle (HAHA xDDD):
Thank you for being someone I can always confide in. You're such a great listener, you're so easy to talk to I can tell you anything and you give me good advice with care, for that I thank you. Though I can't rmb how we started talking I'm really glad to call you my close friend. All those nights we spent just hanging out and chatting are times I cherish.

That night was our longest Goodbye, but it's merely farewell for now.

Don't forget that I'm always here for you alright?

Chubbs (LOL I'm so getting killed for this):
Yo man, it was an awesome year huh? Lots of crazy experiences. I'm quite happy that you were my roomie. It made adjusting to Melb a whole lot easier having someone I've known for a pretty long time. Those late nights when we talked abt girls and well life were truly enjoyable, even though it made waking up for lectures the next day a TORTURE xP

We ride together, We die together, Bad Boys for Life

Spermy (Another one...gotta become a cat with 9 lives xP):
It was really fun getting to know you. What with your bitch-I-ain't-taking-shit-from-you attitude xP and your straightforwardness. There's no two ways about anything with you! Do you rmb how we started talkin? I do and thats because its one of the weirdest ways i got to know someone. Outside Eeep-eeep's room while she was on the phone? yea that was an interesting conversation which started a great friendship.

Eeep-eeep (Die liao... EVERYONE'S gonna be after my punkass... OH WELL xDDDD):
Thank you for being someone whom I could talk to whenever and where ever no matter about what. I can always count on you to encourage me in my walk with God. My most memorable conversation with you is probably that night after you had dinner with... phaikwah? Yea i think so. We went to Carlton Gardens to sit while we waited for Spermy. That conversation well... It was special to me anyway. It changed my mind about certain things and I think everything worked out from there. I'm glad to have met you and gotten to know you over last year. May our friendship grow from strength to strength! I'll always be there when you need me.

If only some things never change

Looking back I do not regret one bit my final decision to head to Melb. The course, though short was challenging and pushed me to work harder than I've ever worked before but hey, it pays off. 86% and Faculty of Arts man! Praise God for that =)
Planetshakers has been an eye opener for me. I've never felt so close with a cell-group ever before. I really miss it now that I'm back in Sg. Praying God sends me to the Church He has called me to be soon.

In this broad world,
I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter,
wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew,
so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination,
when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded