Shinigami Diary

Updates

2008-05-19T10:59:00.000+08:00

Okay it's been a long time, but i'm in the army! so sue me.

Hahah well just turned 18 on saturday. Was a pretty uneventful day, just went shopping with my aunt then dinner with my buds and family.

Army's ok so far but it's just BMT. Got another 22months of this crap. sigh.

I wanna go back to melb terribly...

I dunno what else to write, army must've squashed more of my brain than i thought.

Will update another time.

POP in 3 weeks

Ramblings

2008-03-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

I want:

A Mini Cooper S. Second hand its 80 Grand! Better start saving huh?

All models of Air Jordans ever made! Sigh...why they gotta make so many??? I'll never have a complete collection... (cause it'll probably be altogether worth a BMW or 2)

A new closet! I don't have enough closet space at all!!! My t-shirts are all crumpled and what not.

A new house with a basketball court, home theatre system and 4 lane bowling alley built into the basement. A huge ass swimming pool and enough man toys to never be bored.

A day to play basketball with my favourite NBA players.

A day poverty came to an end.

A life without pain. (HAH yea right, if only...)

A way to make things right again.

2008-03-01T03:44:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry the way things worked out.

I know I've disappointed you. If there's anything I could do to make it up I would without a doubt. I've done some stupid things in my life but that had to be one of the most idiotic things I've accomplished in my short life time. I can't turn back time but I can move forward a changed person.

Still I can't help but think, "If only things were different..."

Reflections

2008-03-01T01:24:00.002+08:00

I wish I could go all the way back and do things differently, if only I had thought things through and talked before jumping into it.
But it's too late now isn't it? Shoulda Coulda Woulda's are always nice but they don't happen. What do i do now? It's so tiring looking. I don't know how else to say it other than through music:

Boys Like Girls - Thunder

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder...

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There's more but i'm too tired to continue...

"On Wings of Crimson Fire I Fly,

Straight into the Midnight Sky..."

The Search

2008-02-27T23:48:00.004+08:00

Dawn -
The morning sun creeps over the horizon ever so slowly,
Its beams taking slow stabs into the eternal darkness of the night,
As if waiting for something unexpected.
Two souls wandering collide,
The strings of fate bringing them together.
Where does their destiny lie? Only time will tell.

Noon -
The blazing midday sun scorches the land,
Finding shelter in the shade they lay,
not a care in the world, closer they grew,
Time passes slowly with the sun crawling through the sky,
And it seemed as if this friendship would last forever,
But... would it become something more?

Dusk -
Retiring away, the evening sun struggles as it gives way to the night,
It being the one chased away from its sky throne,
Time now sped away, with not enough to be spent between the two,
What appeared to be forever now was quickly fading,
Fate had other things in store for these two travelers.

Night -
The land now engulfed in the dark of night,
The sun resting from its voyage through the vast blue.
Two souls, pulled apart by the hands of Fate,
"Were we not meant for each other?"
One wondered aloud, in tears from what happened.
Eyes closed, sleep set in.
A long journey was ahead and rest was needed,
The journey to find the One,
When will it end?
Will it ever end?

Go On Girl

2008-02-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

Aqua Timez - Sen no Yoru wo Koete (Overcoming the Thousand Nights)

I want you to love me, but I dont think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

Do you love me or not?
I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know!
No matter how badly I desire to be with you
There are many unchangeable things in this world
and my love for you
can't be stopped by anyone

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Putting these feelings into words is so scary
but I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

In this broad world,
I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter,
wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew,
so that we can protect someone

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,
my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me
and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love
And that's the most beautiful thing in the world

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BAAD "Kimi ga Suki da to Sakebitai; I Want to Shout "I Love You"

Starting my run in the middle of town,
bright sunlight at my back,
as always, [you] tapped my shoulder
I'm so enthralled by you
- yet for reasons unknown
your arm won't be linked to mine.

Before I realized it,
you stole my gaze, and it began.
I won't let you go. I won't have any doubts.
Crazy for you.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's be brave and take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.

On the noisy floor,
across from me at the crowded table,
I'm lost in your casual glance.
It feels like I'm in love with you,
yet it's like I'm being toyed with.
I can't lie to my soaring emotions anymore.

When will it change,
this frustrating friendship?
I want to tell you. I want to make sure.
I take you away.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's leave everything behind.
I want to find the words to melt your heart.
I want to shout "I love you."
I won't let you leave me tonight.
Let's end the days we don't get past just gazing at eachother
I wanna cry for you

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's bravely take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.
I wanna cry for you

3 weeks more

2008-02-25T21:10:00.003+08:00

In exactly 3 weeks i'll have been in the army for 3 days.

Its coming so fast, it seems just yesterday that it was 3 months away.

I can't believe i'm going to be in the army. It's so surreal. Most of my friends are in JC or poly and so still have at least a year before they go in. I've heard so many different things about it.

It's hell
It's great
Worse 2 years
Best 2 years
Interesting
Waste of time

Yea i've pretty much heard everything but i have no idea what its gonna be like. I guess its something you have to experience for yourself to truly understand.

Looking back, I've come a pretty long way from being in primary 1H in HPPS.
I've changed school twice, classes 6 times and country once.
I've met a ton of ppl while I was at it too, great friends, irritating idiots and just plain annoying punks, but hey, the good with the bad huh? My path to where I am really was God directed. Without going into the details too much I realized how different things would be had I decided differently on some choices such as secondary school as well as my decision to go to Trinity. I may not have enjoyed the initial stages of my new schs but eventually I grew to love the place i had been placed in and the ppl that i had met.

Where I go from here? Well that's not entirely up to me is it?
Peace man
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There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street,
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet,
We were both 18, and it felt so right,
Sleeping all day, staying up all night,
Staying up all night.
----- Yellowcard "Ocean Avenue"

So maybe there’s not a lot to do
Or maybe I’m just making myself confused
Or maybe I’ve got nothing to lose
But if I get out of line,
Just tell me you’re mine,
And how I’m better with you
----- Five Times August "Better With You"

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,
my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me
and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt
----- Aqua Timez "As a Thousand Nights Pass"

Fav Songs

2008-02-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

How Time Flies

2008-02-20T17:25:00.002+08:00

Its been a year since I first set foot on the Trinity Campus in Melbourne...

I still remember how reluctant I was to leave Sg to go for the Foundations course, leaving family and friends behind. Funny how it was only cuz Huai heard I was thinking of going and he persuaded his parents to let him go that I decided it wldnt be too bad specially cuz my bud wld be rooming with me. Seriously having that bugger as a roomie for a year really makes it an interesting one xD

So many things happened during that 8.5 months(not counting the holidays); orientation camp at the grampians which had a spectacular view of the stars at night; the big noise-where many of us made a fool of ourselves; drama exams which most of us busted our asses off to practice and make perfect and not to forget the prom which was weirdly held at the Melb Aquarium.

Those were just some of the bigger events. There was the weekly events like HOI Lecture with Tamar(the squeakiest lecturer EVER); Graham's econs/nagging sessions; Danny's crazy antics during drama and Maureen's insanely entertaining Psychology lessons.

The friends I have made are ones that I will cherish for life.

Poodle (HAHA xDDD):
Thank you for being someone I can always confide in. You're such a great listener, you're so easy to talk to I can tell you anything and you give me good advice with care, for that I thank you. Though I can't rmb how we started talking I'm really glad to call you my close friend. All those nights we spent just hanging out and chatting are times I cherish.

That night was our longest Goodbye, but it's merely farewell for now.

Don't forget that I'm always here for you alright?

Chubbs (LOL I'm so getting killed for this):
Yo man, it was an awesome year huh? Lots of crazy experiences. I'm quite happy that you were my roomie. It made adjusting to Melb a whole lot easier having someone I've known for a pretty long time. Those late nights when we talked abt girls and well life were truly enjoyable, even though it made waking up for lectures the next day a TORTURE xP

We ride together, We die together, Bad Boys for Life

Spermy (Another one...gotta become a cat with 9 lives xP):
It was really fun getting to know you. What with your bitch-I-ain't-taking-shit-from-you attitude xP and your straightforwardness. There's no two ways about anything with you! Do you rmb how we started talkin? I do and thats because its one of the weirdest ways i got to know someone. Outside Eeep-eeep's room while she was on the phone? yea that was an interesting conversation which started a great friendship.

Eeep-eeep (Die liao... EVERYONE'S gonna be after my punkass... OH WELL xDDDD):
Thank you for being someone whom I could talk to whenever and where ever no matter about what. I can always count on you to encourage me in my walk with God. My most memorable conversation with you is probably that night after you had dinner with... phaikwah? Yea i think so. We went to Carlton Gardens to sit while we waited for Spermy. That conversation well... It was special to me anyway. It changed my mind about certain things and I think everything worked out from there. I'm glad to have met you and gotten to know you over last year. May our friendship grow from strength to strength! I'll always be there when you need me.

If only some things never change

Looking back I do not regret one bit my final decision to head to Melb. The course, though short was challenging and pushed me to work harder than I've ever worked before but hey, it pays off. 86% and Faculty of Arts man! Praise God for that =)
Planetshakers has been an eye opener for me. I've never felt so close with a cell-group ever before. I really miss it now that I'm back in Sg. Praying God sends me to the Church He has called me to be soon.

In this broad world,
I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter,
wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew,
so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination,
when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

Updates

2007-12-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

Whoa... okay its been awhile.
It's 2 days to the new year and i'm gonna do a recap of what's been going on.
If you don't already know i broke up with my 2nd gf a few weeks back. It just didnt work out and yea i'm fine but i don't really wanna talk abt it.
My exams were alright. Did pretty well actually, which was sort of a surprise.
85.75% overall
Psych 91
HOI 89
Eng 86
Econs 77 (THIS WAS A BIIIIG SURPRISE!!! THANK YOU LORD JESUS!!! Without you that wldnt have been possible)
EAP 85

Yea so...PRAISE GOD for my good results!!!
Other than that....i was in Japan for a solid 2weeks.
Yea what a long time huh? After the holiday i was like "okay, you guys are my family and i love you guys but...eh 2weeks 24/7 is a LITTLE too much" hahahha.

We were in Tokyo Disneyland/sea for 3days then went to tokyo for another 3. Went to Hakone next, The Hot Springs are AWESOME!!!! Took a train to Kyoto where we stayed at a traditional Japanese inn. The castles are truly a work of art. The nightingale floor is a technological marvel, indicating to guards if there was an intruder in the castle.

A short drive to Osaka and we were at Osaka castle which is one of the most beautiful castles ever constructed! The gold and green truly display the importance and worth of it. Osaka was nice, kinda reminded me of Melbourne...not too crowded like Tokyo but not too rural either. The trip was truly an enjoyable and interesting one.

Reached home on the nite of the 22nd and immediately went to prepare for christmas eve dinner at my place with all my relatives. What a rush man!!! Had to buy all the presents in one day! Met Deb after that just to hang, went to her place and played the Wii!!! Hahahha now i got one for myself!!!! HAPPINESS!!!!!!

CHRISTMAS DAY I HAD TO SPRINGCLEAN!!!! My mom is damn power. Watched National treasure2 with the family that nite. It was interesting but not something i would watch again. Wednesday i got dragged to the office to work for my mom so it was a day that just dragged along.

Thursday was definitely more fun! Met up with Rachel at Serene centre for lunch at Mac's but that wasnt the real reason we went there. It was for Island Creamery!!!! It has the best flavours!!! I had tiger sorbet and treated her to Nutella. hahaha. it was so good. missed it while i was in melb. She came over and met Angel and we played the Wii. She totally owned me at the 100m dash. Headed to gradma's for dinner and it was laksa!!! Yumm...grandma's laksa owns. hahahah. Headed to PS to meet Deb before we watched "I Am Legend". It was a really good movie. Will Smith is a great actor. He really shines in this suspense/thriller. That night wasnt too hot and there was a slight breeze which was a pleasant surprise. It was great just catching a flick and chillin together.

wished time would have just stood still

Met Shiyou at wheellock before going for UL(UrbanLife). She had a shirt that was totally a ripoff of one of mine(HAHAHA She's so gonna kill me for writing that but ah well you only live once xD) She had to repair her mom's phone cuz the speeddial didnt work. The wait was like 20mins!!! Luckily we walked around before going back just on time. Then her mom's phone actually decided to work again... =_=" hahah oh well. UL was really good. Lots of ppl were there...almost 30 i think. Food was good and the sharing was really revalational(is that a word? oh well thats how it felt). Worship was filled with God's presence...which was something i really needed after not being able to go to church for 2weeks+.

Anyhow more updates next time. Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year to all!!!
Here are 2 songs i've been listening to, The first is the chorus of "How Do I Breathe" By Mario and the 2nd is a Japanese theme song from the anime "Slam Dunk", of which i found the english lyrics.

How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When Your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your hearts where I lay my head
When your not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe

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Starting my run in the middle of town,
bright sunlight at my back,
as always, [you] tapped my shoulder
I'm so enthralled by you
- yet for reasons unknown
your arm won't be linked to mine.

Before I realized it,
you stole my gaze, and it began.
I won't let you go. I won't have any doubts.
Crazy for you.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's be brave and take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.

On the noisy floor,
across from me at the crowded table,
I'm lost in your casual glance.
It feels like I'm in love with you,
yet it's like I'm being toyed with.
I can't lie to my soaring hearbeat (emotions) anymore.

When will it change,
this frustrating friendship?
I want to tell you. I want to make sure.
I take you away.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's leave everything behind.
I want to find the words to melt your heart.
I want to shout "I love you."
I won't let you leave me tonight.
Let's end the days we don't get past just gazing at eachother
I wanna cry for you

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's bravely take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.
I wanna cry for you

Results!

2007-07-22T19:08:00.000+08:00

Okay i got all my results back.

Quite happy with most of them but kinda wanted to do better in some...

EAP: 16/20 (wanted to get 17+ but oh well)
HOI: 16.5/20 (about what i expected but hoped to get 17+ too)
ECONS: 7.75/10 (Arrrghh wanted like 8.5...sian oh well)
Psychology: 32/35 (Quite happy with this but like wanted to get fullmarks...)
Maths: eh heh heh... 35/100 (die la...considering dropping maths...)

UPDATE

2007-07-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

HEY ppl!!! Been lazy to update for a looooooooong time so quick update.

Exams:
Finished all the trinity term2 exams abt 3weeks ago.
To sum up, EAP is gonna be a nailbiter...dunno do well or fail BADLY
Math...eh heh math is math...a bitch. gonna SOOOOOOOOO FAIL. oh well..sian
Lit, hope i can do pretty well here. aiming high
Econs i think i can do relatively well but don't wanna get my hopes up too high.
Psychology. i wanna get as close to full marks as possible but i lost some marks already...
Drama i got 8/10. hoping to get 9 point something but well...didnt do my monolouge well enough...sianz

Holiday! :
Was back in Sunny singapore for abt 12days! SO DAMN HOT.
Melbourne is now like average 12 degrees. SHIOK MAN!!! but its like cooooold.
Singapore was fun. saw my sji juniors. HAHA they were super surprised to see my hair so long. Got to watch them at AP as well! that was a blast.
MALAY MIX RICE IN SJI IS THE BEST MAN!!!!!!
Had only 40 sticks of satay this time around... (im deproving...sighhh)
Before i went back i went to the BLEDISOLE CUP at the MCG. Awwww maaaaaaaaaan... ALL BLACKS shoulda won it. but australia played well in the 2nd half. gotta give it to em. It was a really good rugby match!!!

Okay damn tired now. its like wad 3 freaking am in the morning. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING? kk need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep now. Holla back man!

What's It Mean To Be A Friend?

2007-06-22T17:28:00.000+08:00

Okay, so like what does it mean to be a friend? Let's go by the dictionary meaning.
Dictionary.com says:
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter

3. a person who is on good terms with another

Hmmm... my own:
1. a person you actually CHAT and have CONVERSATIONS with.

2. a person you spend TIME with.

So... technically if your "friend" doesn't do any of these, can't exactly call 'em your friend can you?

You know, we don't need to do this, we can just stop the facade that we're still friends.
A "hello" here and there with a half smile are all we have now huh?
Just tell me. I can take it. Say it and let's move on. Without each other's friendship, not like we have one now but anyway.
I still want to be friends, I do. But if your idea of ME being YOUR friend is that you can tell everyone else stuff but not me well i don't need that. I don't even know what to talk to you about anymore. I don't know you. I used to. Not anymore.
Just go hang out in you're own group. I have a group of people who ACTUALLY give a DAMN about me. People who ask how I'm doing, talk with me about everything and anything, SPEND TIME WITH ME. But I guess if that's too hard for you, then don't even pretend to. I don't need someone who won't spend time with me and then say "I'm cool being your friend"
Friends spend time with each other don't they? Or are you just unable to get that into your head?
SIGH...
Ahhh forget it. Go spend time with your friends. Go hang out with them.
Go...just...just... go away.

I'm sorry this post is so emo too... I just need to get that off my chest. EAP EXAM TMR!!! Ahhhhh!!!! PSYCHOLOGY AND MATH ON MONDAY!!!!! LIT ON TUES!!!!! ECONS ON FRI!!!!! Damnit this week gonna pass fast.
But i want it over quickly...
Can't wait to get home.
Miss you guys back in Sunny(read : HOT) singapore!
SATAY AGAIN!!!! HAHAHAH this time going for 50+ sticks!!!

SIAN

2007-06-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

Damn sian today man. Dunno why.

"The Happiness of Love is a Shooting Star, The Pain of Love is the Darkness that follows..." A quote from the collection of short stories {A Thousand Years Of Good Prayers} by Li YiYun.

Ain't that too true? How many times does Pain NOT follow after Love?
It's like a faulty package deal. Unless you find the right one, its just gonna end up with someone hurt..

Chains
Chains. Metal. Cold to Touch.
Cold like what I feel from you.

Chains. Strong. Hard to break.
Strong, like my desire to hold you once again.
Unbreakable, my resolve to be with you.

Chains. Restrictive. Holding me back.
The gap you've created between us,
why won't you let me come near?

Chains. Protective. Dare I say never again?
Wrapped my heart in Chains, keeping it from Pain.
You have the Key, will you come set me Free?

I don't know why i feel the way i feel. I know I still miss her. I miss holding her hand, hugging her tight, stroking her cheek with the back of my hand, running my fingers through her hair, kissing her goodnight... I know, but I don't know why I feel the way I feel. I can't describe how I feel...

Lord, please just take away the feelings I have. They're just too painful to bear... I need your love now Jesus, now more than ever...

I just wanna go home. I don't want to do my exams. I don't wanna study anymore, I just want to be at home. I miss my family, my friends, my dog...sigh...

St.Kilda's

2007-06-02T19:53:00.000+08:00

Alright as promised, I'll talk abt that CRAZY trip.

Me YuHuai JunWei were the only guys.
The rest were girls : Deb,Shiyou,MingHuei,Sher,Melissa,Chariss,YiHui,Audrey Goh n Quek,Sarah,LiTing,Christine.

Yea so all of us split into 4 diff cabs and met up back at Donnovan's, which is a daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn nice restaurant.

Sat on the pier with the bloody cold wind freezing our butts off. It was probably 10degrees w/o the wind; 7 or 6 with the wind...

Me n Huai had a few beers each. hahah Corona n Asahi. CORONA ROCKS!!!

Haha y'all must be thinking "crazy buggers, chilled beer in less than 10degree weather." But who cares? it was fun!!!

The sunrise wasn't too bad. Even tho it wasn't spectacular, it was pretty fun! We goofed around a lil more then headed home as everyone like started to wake up.

Hit the sack at abt 9.30am and went for church that nite.

I'm lazing for pics so another time! hahah

DEATH TO HOI ESSAY QUESTION TWO

2007-06-01T15:53:00.000+08:00

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHHA!!! Done with HOI!!! The only damn thing keepin me from posting the...last 2weeks? yea something like that. shit man lotsa stuff has happened.

1) On the 20th of May, me and 14 other CRAZY ppl went to St.kilda's at like 4am in the morning and sat on the pier to wait for the sunrise. FRICKING COLD!!! Haha will post pics later.

2) SLAP at Arrow on Swanston... that's gonna be a long post so after dinner!!! hahah brb peeps.

17YEARS OLD!!! (damn im old)

2007-05-18T17:35:00.000+08:00

First birthday away from home...it was pretty GREAT!!! =))) Thanks guys!!!

At Urban Life wed nite? After everything JonoOng said he needed to talk to me in his room( i was like "uh oh..." hahah). Then the lights went off and everyone started singing! So coool!!! Hahaa thanks!!! That was really special...since i've never celebrated with my cell group back home.
The Palmerston Experience wasn't too bad either! hahah got home just about 12am on the 17th and everyone was in block6!!! I didn't think there'd be SOOO MANY PPL!!! hahaha like tito justin hon nigel kevin nicolas christine clara jean prim kristi kathi junwei lawrence reina minghuei melissa shiyou deb audrey sher liting gwen calvin. Yea...hope i didn't forget anyone... heh SORRY if i did!!! Thank you ALL for coming!!! It meant ALOT to me!!

So did the whole sing song n cut cake and just when i thought it was safe... Nic came up to me and was like *evil grin with cake in hand* "Hiiiii Jon..." CAKE MASCARA!!!! lol, he missed the first time but then i just let him hit me on the left cheek. hahahah it was good fun.

The party then adjourned to my balcony. Music n booze. Haha yea thats basically how it went til 3.30am where i was daaaaaaaaaaamn tired n stoned so luckily kevin ended the party.

My birthDAY itself was kinda slow cuz it rained and i just had HOI essay plan checking with Januz. Slpt the party off during the afternoon and went out for dinner. Dimattina's!!!! Went with Calvin JunWei Deb Shiyou Sher n Gwen. Dinner was AWESOME!!! I LOVE OYSTERS!!!! hahaha btwn calvin and me we had 36 oysters!!!(building up for the future xDDD) Yea so my first birthday away from home was pretty good. Missed my family but my family here made up for it =)

THANKS TO :
Nigel Clara n Christine FOR : 3 Cute lil bottles of hard liquer! DAMN CUTE!!!
Prim n Jean : Thanks for the HUGE Toblerone! Thanks to you i HAVE to go to the gym soon. hahah oh well
Kevin Hon Nic n Justin FOR : The daaaaamn nice Fossil Wallet n Belt. Shall change wallets soon! haha
Deb Shiyou Sher MingHuei Melissa Audrey Yihui Charis FOR : The Super smartlooking and comfortable SHIRT and the cool brown Havaianas(Spartan Sandles!!!).
SHIRIN : THANKS JIEJIE for the chocolates sweet and the birthday card!!! Love you so much!!! =DDD

You guys ROCK!!!

Resurrection...

2007-05-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

Wow...9 months since my last post. It really has turned into a "Ghost Blog". Well enough of that. It's a new year. Time to resurrect this old thing.

QUICK UPDATE

I got 16pts for O's. Not too shabby eh? Considering i thought i was gonna like JUST PASS History 2158. The breakdown goes something like this :
English: A2 (DAMNIT WAS AIMING FOR A ONE!!!)
EMath: B3 (Okay La)
AMath: B4 (oso Okay La, expected worst)
SS/GeogElec: A1 (My only ONE {haha})
Physics: Ehhh... B4 (ithink can't rmb xP)
Chem: LOL my WORST C6
Chinese: C5 (BETTER THAN MY CHEM???)
History: B3

Yea so then I'm in Trinity College (Melbourne) now.
Didn't do well enough for SAJC...Sigh...
Well, I'll be a SAINT in Spirit.
Aaaaaaaaaaand well its been pretty good here. The Sch's aite, the teachers are aite. The Friends are GREAT. The Church is GREAT (PLANETSHAKES!!!!!). The food...eh the food where i stay is *ahem* "aite", but other than that its pretty good too. Weather's nice right now. Autum. shiok man. Taking Math Economics and Psychology, which is daaaaaamn cool. Lotsa diff countries represented here, mostly from Singapore,Malaysia,Indonesia,HongKong and China. Some are from Korea,The Middle East...yea dunno any others...hahah. The eve i'm turning 17...damn i'm sure the guys got some shit planned for me x) *RUNS AND HIDES* haha i'll do that later. Damn tired now so gonna stop typing. Might do more updates in later posts but well that's all you're gettin for now.

Peace hommies.

Who Am I?

2006-07-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

Wad are you supposed to do if you're friends with everyone but not good friends with anyone? or rather the ppl you see everyday and not those who are good friends but arent seen very often. how am i supposed to feel if my dream is to be a NBA player but i'm , "too short" , "too slow" , "chinese" or am told "Just Give It Up, You'll NEVER do it..." and on the other hand told to , " just do it!" and "impossible is nothing" ??? can ANYONE tell me what the HECK am i supposed to do? Who Am I? What Am I? Will It matter if i go away and never come back? cause it sure seems like that sometimes... the pain i feel...is it justifiable? or am i to blame? are academics the only thing in this life of mine? are they wad count when i stand before the Lord on high and await judgement?? Does the book of life say ," oh u failed physics and a maths...you can't get into heaven." ?? Does it??? SO WHAT THE HELL IS ALL THE FUSS ABOUT STUDIES AND ACADEMICS????? WHY DO I NEED A1s and A2s TO BE CONSIDERED COMPETENT? DO MY MORALS AND VALUES COUNT AT ALL??? FREAK THIS WORLD!!!

...And On Wings Of Crimson I Will Fly...

sick...again?!?!?!?

2006-04-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

hey guys nothing to do so gonna blog... sick 2day...AGAIN... stomach flu AGAIN...sigh still i went to sch 2day and took my history test on jap aggression in china b4 i went to see J liew to get permission to go home and see a doctor, oh n u know, to go home im supposed to get a blue form but so many ppl are fallin sick in sch that they ran out! hahaz . so later went to see doc teoh and was biggest bugger there...haha everyone else there who was gonna see doc was like 5yrs or younger... (note to self : need a new doctor) so yea he gave me my meds and i went home... slpt from 11am to 5pm (yea i know im a PIG, but then i was tired and sick) abt to slp now so yea cya guys ard huh? oh yea btw we lost to SAS in rugby so i hope they WHOOP ACSI though thats gonna b a lil hard to do... so yea GO SAINTS!!!!

P-I-S-S-E-D

2006-03-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

WHT CANT I NOT GO FOR THE DINNER??? WHY DO I HAVE TO GO??? WHY CANT I GO TO THE BBQ WITH MY FRENZ N PPL MY AGE???? WHY DO I HAVE TO GO TO A 40-SOMETHING YR OLD'S DINNER N SEE HIS 12 YR OLD SON WHO I DONT EVEN KNOW AND NOT BE ABLE TO GO FOR THE BBQ WHERE I HAVE PPL MY AGE AND FRENZ I WANNA HANG OUT WITH??? HUH???!!!!!!! WAD THE HELL IS WRONG???? IF U THINK IM JUST GONNA SIT THERE N SMILE N PRETEND I DONT WANNA BE SOMEWHERE ELSE GUESS WAD???? AINT GONNA HAPPEN!!! I'LL JUST LOOK LIKE THE PUNISHER LOOKING FOR SOME BLOOD... THATS ALL NOT MUCH EH? DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! AND ITS THE NEW TERM TOO!!!! SOON IT'LL BE MIDYRS N I WONT HAVE A CHANCE IN HELL OF GOING FOR A BBQ LIKE THIS ONE...SO WHY...THE...HELL.......NOT?????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUGGER!!!!

BINTAN ROCKED!!!

2006-03-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

Hey guys sorry no update for like forever but been busy with common tests n stuff so yea thought since now its the march hols id update. ok on saturday i went to clubmed bintan with my family and a few other families: keith,kim,ian and parents, brien,dyanna (aint that a cool name?) and brien's fren dawn(hope thats how its spelt not too sure myself), their parents , charlene & charmaine with their mom and finally my family. we had a blast. All we did was eat go to the beach play bball eat go beach play pool/snooker eat slp wake up eat go beach....(ok so we ate alot but i didnt put on any weight at all!!! =D ) ClubMed was such a beautiful place i wanna go baaaaaaaaaaack!!!!!! the food rocks the beach is spectacular and the sea is awesome!!! waater's so clear!!!! it was such a fun time =D sigh oh well back to reality....hw studyin tuition and boredom sigh... someone bring me back there!!!!!!!

Sianess

2006-02-12T15:32:00.000+08:00

SOOOOOOOOO wanted to go to Trinity for their Valentine's Day service but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mom has to play the guilt trip card and make it so that i wont go for it....DAMMIT.....damn pissed...havnt gone to a service at all this week.... realli was lookin forward to goin but nooooooo must stay home n STUDY…STUDY STUDY STUDY....it seems thats all i do but its not really productive...like right now im supposed to be studyin but i cant realli say im in a mood condusive to studyin so here i am typin this out. B4 mom called me n kinda RUINED the rest of my day...i was at sunday sch...not as a student but as a facilitator so its diff...then cuz it was Jessie's bdae ytd we went to suntec to go eat brunch...ate at Carl's Jr then mom called...sigh....walked to Ben n Jerry's after that ate some ice-cream then decided to leave. at that time saw Val's god-parents so went to say hi...didnt see her godma so val was tryna rush off w/o all of us talkin n decidin wad was gonna happen...then when they were walkin off val's godma came...she didnt even go n talk to her...val just rushed off...along with everyone else leaving me to say ello n goodbye n sry we cant stay too long to chat...blah blah... then had to run off after them...i mean their rehersal wasin 1 HOUR!!! it doesnt take THAT LONG to walk back to Church...cant even talk to her own godma a lil while...then just walk off w/o me...dammit sia...was so pissed that i just put on my headphones n walked on infront of them w/o sayin anythin n went home to "STUDY"....sia lah.... pissed.....shall not talk anymore...however i feel like typin a lil something :
i aint sick of this life...just wondering y's it gottta b filled with strife,
Sg's a nice n safe place to stay...but then y do i see so many ppl movin away?
Tests,CAs,Exam Results...Is that all there is to this life?
So many just end it with a knife...thrown away...this precious gift called "life"...
why do children and teens seek out Death...and the many ways to draw their last breath?
is it the stress placed upon them? the expectations once they're too old for a play pen?
To get into RI or RGS after the PSLE? 2Points for the O levels to go straight to college?
Be a Doctor,Lawyer,a job where they get recognised and you can brag?
Why not an artist? teacher or coach? something that will touch the lives of others?
how about an NBA/NFL star?what? you say that its too far?
How do you know its too far if you've never travelled that path?
If im not gonna b a scientist or a mathematician why learn science n math?
I want to play pro ball...you say i'll stumble and fall...
Dont that sound familiar to you? Like a baby takin its 1st steps towards you...
It will stumble and fall...and it may not get up but you urge them on...and they do it right
aint i right? arent we all walking because of the many times where we stumbled and fell but due to encouragement we overcame it and are walking tall...
Cant a kid dream of playing in the NBA? "you cant make it...you wont make it no matter how hard you try" you say
"no matter how hard i try?" if it doesnt try at all will the baby eagle ever fly?
now your pushing me to do well...i want to but cant seem to...
do well in sch...sigh thats all thats important?
how abt the little things that make life worthwhile?
have we really come to the point where numbers on a slip of paper make up our life?
i dont know...i hope not...cuz if it has...i see why many have skipped the drama called life and went straight to the ending....

what a nice day!!! =D

2006-02-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

whoa its been a long time.... i can smell the staleness of this blog... sry dudes n dudettes for not updating this place regularly...sch's been goin on for abt a month already and im just able to cope. the whole month's been abt the same altho it still feels kinda weird to be called sec4.... IT'S "O" LEVELS THIS YEAR!!!! AAAAAARRRRRGH!!!!! hai...sry abt that.... o well abt today...its been a long time since i've talked with her, almost 7months, and the last time i saw her was exactly one year ago today, but i finally got to see n talk to her after all this time!! so happy... i've missed her so much... she's such a great fren of mine and not being able to talk to her has realli been weird and uncomfortable... so anyway... today is her bdae n i went to her house to give her, her present. she was kinda surprised to see me but none the less she looked pretty cheery as always even though she was sick and didnt go to school. God realli aligned it nicely for me today... i was gonna sit at a cafe near her house n "ambush" her on her way home but decided to go to her hse later, then normally she doesnt get home til 6.45 on thurs n i went there at abt 5.50pm but cuz she was sick she stayed at home. so Thanks Dad!!! for making such a nice coincidence.... well its been a great day i'll try n update more often ppl!! cya ard

Srryz

2005-12-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

Hey guys i know i said id blog in NZ but its been kinda hard cuz i didnt have internet connection at all the places ive stayed at. right now its like 2am over here so im not gonna b bloggin a long one 2nite. i'll finish up when i get back hahahhaz its just too hard to type everythin ive done...specially when im supposed to be slpin..... so yea just dropped by to say hi so cya guys when i get back!!

TMR NZ

2005-11-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

i'll be off to new zealand tmr nite...sighz...i know i shld b happy but then.... i'll be missin my church youth camp!!!! i realli realli realli wanna gooooooo!!!! sighz.... so suay, everytime the camp is like...durin the time im away...ah well....will do my best to go nxt yr!!! nuthin much to say actually....will b bloggin frm NZ so yea cya guys ard.

St.Andrew's Day

2005-11-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

whoooooo hooooooooo!!! It was St.Andrew's day today!!! so fun!!! got to church at abt 8.45 and waited for the touch rugby games to start. didnt do the st.andrew's workout, lol... so we played the games...1st game was against some old guys n they kept playin offside!!!!! AAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGH!!! so irritatin. Ref didnt give any penalty either, sighz... score was 0-0. 2nd game we lost 3-2. 3rd game was lost 4-2 and the last game was won 4-2. siiiighhh.... funny thing is, the refs were all my dad's old rugby mates back in JC. hahah oh well it was fun. o especially the last match... we played in the rain!!!!! hahahzz that was super fun. it was all muddy n stuff. went to the car to change l8r n then had some chow....was huuuuuungry! had some poh piah then went home...rest of the day was pretty borin so no need to tell u guys lah hahahz aite man cya ard!

...sleep-over...

2005-11-21T10:20:00.000+08:00

whoa...super tired this mornin... Yesterday was a FULL day fer me. Went ta church in the mornin at abt 7.45am and found out that the senior sunday sch has kinda been kicked out of the south transept hall and up into the chapterhouse where i find that its kinda small. Also, the new system of church is that once u have been "confirmed" u will be graduated from there and either start attending the main service or join a youth group. presonally i don't realli like this...i wld much rather do it the old school style where we stayed til we were sec4 but then again...sighz ah well...its gotta b part of God's plan for the church and more likely for US, the youth of the church. I think he wants us to grow in Him faster and stronger so that we may help others along the way... but hey...im just guessin this. After church i had a blast my my friends came over n then we went out bowling at SICC...THAT was fun!! hahahz we were like the noisiest group there. After bowling...a lil pool n dinner we came home and went to play bball!!! Me n Dick lost to Teren's team by 1 bal!!!! not fair!!! hai....hahhaz well better go practice more to beat him. then it just got crazier...we cut Val's bdae cake and played twister...that was maddness....twister was crazy hahhahz....so much fun. We watch "you got served" which was totally off the heezy fer sheezy...anyone who likes dancin shld watch it!! i garuntee you'll like it. After that we watched the longest yard...with about another half of the game to go in the movie i fell aslp...onli to wake up later when the movie ended. hahahz that was like at 4am in the mornin sia....n i think tonite again got ppl comin to stay at my place....ahhahhz my hse dunrin hols always like this one... like a chalet... well i Thank Lord God Jesus for givin me a place where i stay and am able to do these things... thank you!!!! aite guys ima gonna bounce so i'll b back soon to blog again.

ISOW was da BOMB!!!

2005-11-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

since tuesday i've been attending ISOW, the international school of worship, conducted by Uncle Brendon and Aunt Cathie Clancy at Grace Methodist Church.It was such a special experience, something i have not done before. It has given me more confidence to lead worship at 8am sunday school as well as to join the worship team at LYnC. on tuesday it started off reeeeeeeeal quick and energetic! most of the time during ISOW was spent praising and worshiping Jesus,Lord our God. We talked abt how to get into God's presence and how to keep the children and youth as well as adults there for a very long time. We played games and had a ball of a time, alot of shouting and jumping around was done...and it ROCKEDD!!!! hahahhzwe we're even asked to lead 1 song of praise or worship. St.andrew's cathedral consisting of me,timothy,valerie,michelle and vanessa chose to do "one way" by hillsong. At first there was supposed to be all of us dancing... but once it started, i just cldnt stop jumping up n down! it was like "heck the dancing, i'll just praise the Lord in the ways which come to me!!" n then it was just shouting and praising all the way!! at the end val was praying and worshipin God, so i closed my eyes and did likewise, as i finished...it was all quiet. i opened my eyes to see almost everyone looking at me and aunt Cathie saying "check him out!! he doesnt even care abt u guys..." hahahz that was really funny to go through...we were seen as passionate. sighz....it was such a sad thing to have to leave GMC today and know i wont be goin back tmr with all the same ppl, but anyhowz.... it was a wonderful and enjoyable experience for me. I've made new friends with ppl from Chapel of the ressurection...hahahz ah well hope to see them sometime soon....its quite a long blog...and my layout is not exactly the easiest to use to read and i do apologise for that...so i gonna go off now cya guys ard!

D3@D +!r3D $!@....

2005-11-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

wah sia lah been a while huh? well aint nuthin much been goin on cept that i've taken up golf...been havin some lessons n improving pretty fast if i do say so myself...hahahz, hmm its been the usual, tuition or bummin out at home sighz.... thursday i had lunch with THE FCC and some of the 208 guys at seoul garden, it was a fun experience!! and the wise words FCC said to us were "don't step on a man while he's on his way down, because you just may meet him while he's on his way back up..." *whoa now take a min to let that sink in.................................done? hahah ok ok* there's a truth to that and it'll b with me for a loooooooong time. Saturday was fun too...went to LYnC with clement and had cell group, the discussion was about the holy spirit and the struggle within ourselves when faced with temptation. sunday wasnt too bad either... went to the main service cuz we didnt have sunday sch. The rest of the day was spent at home then at the driving range for 1 n 1/2hrs of golf,later 1hr15mins of bball!!! whoooooo huuuuuuuuuuu so fun!!! so yea ima check this out again l8r so ima bounce guys! cya

sentosa

2005-11-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

*music plays* guess who's back,back again, Lim is back, tell ur fren...guess who's back, guess who's bac....*music fades to end*

whoa...been quite a while since i posted anything here... been bummin at home, while also studying and relaxing sighz quite boring leh havent gone out in a while. today went to sentosa with the scouts for a unit outing. quite surprisingly it was pretty fun cept for when it was pouring down on us. We mostly crapped abt and just had fun,me, shanmugan and zhao.... hahaz zhao called our station the "sight-seeing" station, why? u may wonder, well it was a PRETTY nice view from where we were so we kinda just looked at the *ahem* b-e-a-utiful "scenery", esp the volleyball and frisbee ones hahahz, rajan n kwang came, to our displeasure...but anyhowz they didnt really bother us. it was quite an enjoyable time but it was also really tiring...kinda shack liao... hahahz sighz i'll b back another time to blog

finally

2005-10-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

school's out!!! i mean for mosta the other schs anyway...i ended sch on tuesday n i've been bummin ard since! tho i still got tuition n my dad wants me to continue to study to prepare for nxt yr's "O"s...sighz...well it aint all that bad... today went ta Ben's hse to hang out, been quite a while! while i was there i noticed his grandma didnt look as healthy as b4...wonder why?...hope she's aite... ben n i were just chattin while he jammed on his guitar b4 menti came... hahahha!! we play burnout:takedown, so fun!!! we whooped metal ass on the PS2 xia lah hahahhz then me n menti had lunch @ pizza hut. Ben went back to sch to see his frenz. came back home and studied history (can you believe it??!!) sighz... It feels like my mei mei is under alota stress,hope shes gonna be ok for her chinese Os on monday...Good luck to you!! and everyone else who's takin the paper on monday!! im outta here cya guys!!

Armagedon

2005-10-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

got results back...rather not talk abt it...well not here anywayz... realli did like shit,thought i would do better in abt 3 subjects but apparently not...sighz a BIG disappointment for me... kinda depressed...til someone came along n brightened my day... thx mei mei!!! sia lah...well today wasn't all that bad... got to play ball with the scholars and i gotta say...they aint half bad...in fact their quite good... though our team still won both matches hahah well will blog another time when in a better mood.. realli gotta buck up now siaz...

OBS

2005-10-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

Tmr im gonna go to obs...b back friday afternoon!! cant wait sia!! unlike *ahem* certain camps... i bet this one's gonna be great!!! though gonna b missin talkin to some ppl at nite...ahahahz ah well... Got a call from an old fren today her mom wanted to talk to my dad bout some stuff...then b4 i knew it she popped by with her mum to pass my dad something....had a nice chat and stuff...been awhile since i did that with her, missed that...she looked great as ever...actually even better...sighz ah well =D ...

will be back friday!!

The Day After...

2005-10-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

Exams are finally over!!! :-)...hahahz emaths wasnt too bad...quite doable...chinese was...well hahahaz it was chinese so watcha gonna do abt it? feeling better today though i didnt get to play ball....may play tmr mornin...go suan the guys still doin exams... hahahaz im so evil...today was boring just came home and bummed around...

feeling better cuz o last nite... had a nice chat with mei mei...sad thing is she still got exams til nxt week and nxt week i got obs...sighz... ah well will see her this sat and sun :-D ...hahahahz well nuthin much more to say...will b bummin around these nxt few days when i dun have sch!!!

Confusion

2005-10-02T13:29:00.000+08:00

onli one more day of exams...so y dont i feel as excited and happy as i thought i would? one reason is that...cuz of the fact i finish my exams so early...i know its a great feeling to get it over and done with...but...most of my friends havent even started theirs...so wad am i supposed to do? i'm gonna b dead bored...to top it off...the weak im at OBS is the week that most of them end their exams... wad an irritant... hmmmz y else? i dunno... wo zhi dao wo yi jing shi ta de "ge ge"... dan shi ...hai wad was that feeling i feel when i see her and him together? although i know she said she onli likes him as a fren...this mornin when i walked in...i felt...something ... cant quite put my finger on it...jealousy? mayb thats wad it was? i have no idea... or mayb even yesterday... when we were talkin abt exams n then *cuz my exams end so early,while theirs has barely started* they were like "do u hear that? izzat a bee?"... i know i was quite a bugger but normally if ppl make jokes like that i have no problem with it,i laugh along, but this time... y do i feel like just goin into a corner and listening to yellowcard's "way away"? y does it hurt more than normal? recently i've felt diff around wo de mei mei... do i like her? yes i do..but whether its just a "fren like" or more than that i have no clue... today when she had to go off suddenly cuz her parents came out from service already and i didnt get to say "goodbye" y did i feel like something was missing... if i do like her,do i tell her? SHOULD i tell her? The last time i had a "mei mei" then told her "i like you" it ended up reeeeeeealli badly...hai... :( so how? i dunno wad to do? sighz ah well i'll have to think abt this again and try and sort myself out... but i think after tmr exams n nxt week's obs is a better time... leave with a song by Yellowcard "empty apartments"

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay
It's okay
It's okay...

LYNC

2005-10-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

today was jaaaaaaaaaammed pack full of stuff... had 2 maths tuition for monday... 0800-0945 then 1000-1115...after that went to tch winni's hse... super cool sia!!! had lunch with the other cell leaders... Mei mei and Tim...hahahz sia lah... then we had our discussions on being a leader and the calling to be a leader...that was sooooooooooo much fun....laughin all the way...but still got the discussion done... after that *i think tch winni is tryna faten the girls up...SOOOO MUCH FOOOD!!!* we all went to Lync at the Adelphi across church... L.Y.N.C (pronounced "link") Linking Youths N Christ... thats wad it stands for...its a youth service from 3-5pm...hahahz that was fun...praised God...played games and heard...urmz... "recruitment" speeches...lol... for the diff ministries... like Welcome and Fellowship, Woship Leading, Outreach, Intercession, Creative and Logistics....sighz today really passed fast...sigh wanted to hang out with mei mei abit longer but then she got exams...all the way til i go for obs that time...ah how leh?

almost done!!!!

2005-09-30T20:46:00.000+08:00

Exams almost over!!!! whooopeee!!! got through the 1st 4days of exams... tues was chinese paper 1 and chemistry...not too bad...wed was emaths paper 1 and elec geog... both manageable...thurs was good at 1st glance...SS was easy...then the killer emergered from the envelope...the PHYSICS PAPER!!! sia lah this was a freaking murder weapon....sch shld b charged for attempted murder in the 1st degree...hahahahz but wait...that wasnt the worst...today...was A maths and History 2158!!!! Amaths was tough but it was expected...History....hahahahz shld have seen the class when we were preparing...everyone was irritable...well most of the guys crammin in class anyway... when mr.tung was walkin to class we were like "NOOOOOOO!!!" or "F**K SHIT!!!" Or even "cld u WAIT LAH!!!" hahahahz that was the funniest...the paper was bullshit...lol i was crappin my way through the paper sia...sigh...hope can pass....some ppl didnt even wait for the 1 1/2 hr mark to stop writing and get some much needed shuteye in....
Monday E maths2 and Chinese2 No kick lah!!! hahahahz BRING IT ON!!!! oh wait gotta remember... "keep knockin on the Devil's door...sooner or later...someone's gonna answer..." hahahhaz watched the Longest Yard last friday!!! so freaking funny!!! Adam Sandler is the best!!! Along with chris rock!! GoTTa buy the DVD!!!.....tmr got 3hrs of maths tuition b4 im goin for Cell-Grp Leader's Trng!!! then onto the youth service at church!!! tmr's gonna ROCK!!! cy'all ard!!

EXAMS TMR!!!

2005-09-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! exams tmr!!!! hahaha nvm cannot chat the "mantra of death" TM(bro mike)...*die die die...fail fail sure fail die sure die...* hahahahz cannot cannot...must chant the mantra of enlightenment! *im gonna kill the paper...im gonna kill the f**kin paper...it cant stop me no one can!...*
sighz being lame...might be a pre-exam high or sumthin...no freakin idea sia.... im gonna go study now....cyaz

my brain....

2005-09-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is an incubator for good ideas, it just takes a while for them to develop.
But when you think of something, watch out!
Your thoughts tend to be huge, and they come on quickly - like an explosion.
You tend to be quiet around others, unless you're inspired by your next big idea.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

exams in a week

2005-09-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

listenin to : Jimmy eat world : Kill
sighz 1more week...then the exams start...frankly...i dun think im ready yet... i still have alot to study...*so wtf am i doin here???*...i dunnno...very sian nowadayz... plus side is...NBA season is startin soon!!! yes!!! finally!!! Miami will b the champions next June!!!!

" To Live Is To Suffer,
To Survive Is To Find Meaning
In The Suffering "

wad do u guys think?

Poems and songs

2005-09-17T13:45:00.000+08:00

Decided to put some stuff i write durin class(when im bored) on my blog...along with some songs i feel are realli nice...read and tag,givin ur reviews...

Slam Dunk Theme song: I want to shout "I love you"

Starting my run in the middle of town,
bright sunlight at my back,
as always,you tapped my shoulder
I'm so enthralled by you
- yet for reasons unknown
your arm won't be linked to mine.

Before I realized it,
you stole my gaze, and it began.
I won't let you go. I won't have any doubts.
Crazy for you.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing moment in time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's be brave and take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.

On the noisy floor,
across from me at the crowded table,
I'm lost in your casual glance.
It feels like I'm in love with you,
yet it's like I'm being toyed with.
I can't lie to my soaring hearbeat emotions anymore.

When will it change,
this frustrating friendship?
I want to tell you. I want to make sure.
I take you away.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's leave everything behind.
I want to find the words to melt your heart.
I want to shout "I love you."
I won't let you leave me tonight.
Let's end the days we don't get past just gazing at eachother
I wanna cry for you

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's bravely take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.
I wanna cry for you...

Yellowcard:
Gifts and curses

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, its all for you
and my worst pains are words I cannot say
still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you. Fight on for you...

Poem:
Loneliness

Trapped in my cold cage
chained to the floor with no escape
darkness my only companion
I see the Sun but i cant feel it
the warmth of its rays I long for it
Your smile, Your Warmth, Your Friendship
with all of it you set me free

Like the golden sun you shone
then you left and there i was
in total misery, chained again

Outside its Summer
but deep inside
I feel the cold of Winter
Alone, by myself, again...

thats all for now....hahaz rmb if u read em pls tag ur reviews! thx alot... need alot more bored time in class for more poems/rap/wadeva hahaz cyaz

...

2005-09-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

life's great....family's all fine...have a place to call home, a school to go to, a court to ball and just a normal life. Some of us are so lucky but we sometimes forget... hurricane Katrina in new orleans, mississipi is a real wake up call like the tsunami of last yr...lives are so fragile...homes are so easily destroyed. In a flash, wad we had can dissapear... nvr forget to appreciate those around you...esp ur family members : your mom,dad,grandparents,siblings...your friends...sch mates and best buds ...a phone call to an old fren is always much appreciated... so suay...today chi oral passage is something im sorta strugglin with...the lost of childhood or pri sch frenz... when i saw the passage i was kinda shocked...sighz...still dun understand but anywayz...siigghz....very bored now.....listenin to yellowcard...feeling down... gotta go slp now...sch tmr morn aaargh sian...

anger is creepin in...

2005-09-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

why do some ppl not act but rather ARE some of ur best friends for such a long time and suddenly change w/o any apparent reason??? it just pisses me off....sure i can understand if we drift apart but it was not after a while!! this one was almost instantly...one moment talkin like best frenz...the next total cold shoulder... i also can understand if at the time something bad happens at home or stuff but keep ignoring me for more than 3months? or even almost a year??? wtf is wrong??? if u wont talk to me how the f am i supposed to understand???!!! we used to be such great friends wad exactly happened i still do not know nor do i understand...i try to but i cant seem to... i try and move on as some ppl advise me to but i cant...its too painful... forgettin you is like rippin a piece of my heart out... the way ur treatin and acting towards me...id rather forget you...but forgettin you is also forgettin all the good and great times we had, the laughter we shared, the arguments we had. everything was so fun and great but what happened? ....sighhz..... im a sentimental old bloody fool... cant stand it anymore...dunno wad to do....listenin to yellowcard's "ocean avenue" album...the absolute best for these kinda moods...or even yellowcard's "gifts and curses" and last Jimmy Eat World "kill"...sighhzzz wish it all went back to normal....

first full day of hols

2005-09-05T22:03:00.000+08:00

aaaaah sian man...hahah mornin got up at 9.30, got ready for tuition at 11, went with glenn by bike...cycling's so fun!!! hahahz...super sian today...val's frenz came over for some proj...studied read comic chat surf net and finally blogged...hahahz hols damn sian man...kk blog some other time...nuthin to say....

the day after the camp

2005-09-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

heyz...back from camp....amazingly...i survived! hahahz well it wasnt that siong... very slack actually...but cannot slp....every hr wake up....then middle of the nite ard 3am got "firedrill"...wake us up...go fall in...then go back and slp again....siiiighz stupid sia...hahahz...then got "sentry duty" sum more...my time from 2.30 to 3am.... sia lah can die....hahahz wake ard newtown sec at nite quite spooky...esp go the spiral staircase there...nobody at all....n very dark...food was alot...too much in fact... always got left over... played games but kena "pumped" alota times still...cuz of stupid idiots who cant follow instructions lah!!! aaaargh... *arms aching* play games STILL must do push-up sia....hahahz...aaaaaaargh so it wasnt THAT bad...but it still wasnt a GREAT camp either...miss hpps scout camps...so much more fun...hahah cant wait... must go back n help when can!!! see mr n mrs koh or rather uncle robert and auntie michelle!! hahahz....waaaaaaaah now sian leh....dunno wad to do....need to mug during this hols or else my final exams sure die one....peace out leavin for now....

Surprise dinner on sat

2005-08-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

ayz...feelin better now...sighz ah well...the thing on sat was bullshit but nitetime was real fun! my mom had been plannin a surprise dinner for my dad and she invited all his frenz n colleagues to it as well as my family...hahahz shld've seen the look on his face!!! total shock! hahahz then it was a great dinner at Saint Piere!! hahaz french food which was totally off the heezy fer sheezy!...was at the "party" to abt 1am n only reached home at 1.30...sia lah can die one...slpt at 2am wantin to go to church then woke up onli at 8!!! my church "officially" starts at 8am but normally doesnt get goin til 8.15 so yea...reached sunday school onli at 8.45...sighz was late...hai... now doin hw...stupid barisan sosialis...still dun wanna go for the stupid camp this weekend... hope mom n dad change their mind n say i shld stay home n study...hai oh wellz....

fcukin shit...

2005-08-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

aaaargh bloody mofo fcuking piece of no good crap...got a fcuking briefing tmr morn ... sum scout bullshit...dun fckin wanna go....need to study for my exam but noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mom n dad say MUST go....fcuk it lah.....right now i dun care wad trouble kwang went to to get me in this stupid fcukin waste of time they call a "leadership training camp"...dun fcukin wanna go....cant they fcukin understand that????????!!!!!!!!! its a bloody total waste of time!!!!! wont get a freckin thing out of it....n dun any of u start abt how i need to go there with a positive attitude n shit.... got enough of that from the 'rents....just venting my pent-up anger here...siiiighzzz....FCUK it lah!!!!! gonna lose 3days of studyin to the stupid punkass camp and THEN still might have to lose another 2dayz to some bitchass canoeing thing....fcuk it!!! y they gotta do it just 2weeks b4 the freckin exam???!!??!!!!??!! SJI is all n gd but this is stupid... just as stupid as its motto abt sports ... "if we cant win top 4, we dont want to do that sport"... buncha sissies up in the sch office....NO BALLS to take a lost with dignity...no bball or soccer team...wad kinda guy's sch is that????? it aint one from where im lookin from.....SIGHHHHH.....freckin pissed right now....they just dun understand me....Y THE HELL DO I NEED TO GO FOR SOMETHING THAT I FEEL IS A TOTAL,COMPLETE AND UTTER WASTE OF TIME?????? its not freckin logical... thats wad it is... still freckin pissed......i think i need to go punch something until it breaks/tears up or my knuckles bleed a WHOLE lot.....

*apologies for "use" of profanities, just realli realli realli need to get it out... super pissed..."

Arrrghz....

2005-08-24T18:37:00.000+08:00

haiz..... its like...less than 5weeks to my exam and i KNOW i should be studying hard and revising to prep for it but...i just have no freaking mood to...its damn sian n life is moving either too slowly or too quickly for me...good friends i used to have suddenly "daoing" me, not answering my calls or replying to my msn chatbox msgs... ok so it mayb near exam time but, it's been goin on for awhile already...some since last yr n some as recent as june...just pisses me off...dunno w.t.h. i did to make them like that...sighz justed feelin down...

onto other matters...my blog still not quite done...i know...sorryz, just i dunno how to do? my sis helps me do it cuz she's pro at it n stuff so just waitin to ask her to help me out with it...

sighz wad to do? some ppl just suddenly "dao" you...hai...well trying not to think abt them, just hang wif my sji homeboys or my hpps BudS...ah well better start gettin down to work now...blog another time...

$34.50

2005-08-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

Yo guys, bloggin frm HK right now...haha for russel peters fans u might have guessed where i am...or not...but anyway for the deprived folk...Russel is one of the ultimate stand-up comedians of all time...racist his jokes maybe but funny they are! hahahz n he even makes fun of his own race! so yea...those wonderin WTH?? am i doin in hong kong in the middle (or rather near end but still...) of the sch term; my parent's frim has a trip so they decided to drag my butt along...therefore i pon sch on fri n skipped a phy test! hahaz... left thurs evening comin back tmr nite...sigh this trip went by very fast...back to sch on monday.. hai....today just went shoppin with the family...bought a chicago bulls cap!! hahahz n went to a super shoppin centre sia...like cine times 3 or 4....damn cool man!! then nite got the firm's dinner so sat with my dad n mom's colleagues...well i sian liao shld b slpin but usin com! hahahz...may blog again tmr if im up to it...

sianness

2005-08-03T17:14:00.000+08:00

wah hahaz while since i blogged....2day was boring...sch sucked as alwayz...me rei sam arthur n bai rong "presented" our chem UBD proj n chen ling kwong whooped our asses wif Q.s none of us cld ans....sighz hahah other then that nuthin much happened in sch...came home n had chi tuition... sighs =_=" haha i know...i suck at chi...ah well just finished it n found out the Heat have gotten Antoine Walker n Jason Williams in a trade!!! hahahz cant wait for the upcoming Season!!! ah well i gonna do my hw now...

1st time..

2005-07-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

whoooo hahah WOW i got a blog...aint this blog cool? done by my very own favourite sis Val!! (AKA Ajace...) hahah thx alot! :-)